Back in the winner's column

Tied for 1st in the Bike Deep Stack Main Event 2 weeks ago ($300 NL). $14,000 payday. Not too shabby! It was terrific timing as the WSOP is now underway, and I can take the big wad of cash up instead of hitting the bank account MORE.

The trend has been one of DOWNSWING for a few months, so this win was sorely needed. Good to get deep and hold on for a nice score.

I did manage to blow off about $11,000 between online and live play over the last month, so after the Bike win, I am net up about $3,000 for that period.

In playing the 10-20 NL game at Commerce last Thurs, I ran into a few coolers, but despite that setback I did not tilt, and patiently built the stack back up from $600 to $3,000. Then more "playing too many hands erosion" followed by some bad luck at the end of the session resulted in a -$5,000 night (this is included in the $11,000 figure above).

Sooooo ... I will head to WSOP with a nice wad, but knowing that I am really only freerolling $3k. But at least not with the guilt of being in the hole at the middle of a bad streak, which will go a long way to having the right attitude, confidence level, and concentration needed to play successfully AND have some fun. Poker is a blast, when it is NOT  a negative financially and IS able to provide some nice cash paydays.

Play for fun and profit, in equal parts. THAT is the path to take.

When I buckle down and play to my potential, with a little help from the deck, I am as capable as anyone at the table of doing big things. So it is on that parting assertion that I offer up a personal prediction:

I will play the best poker I have ever played during the coming WSOP. If the cards cooperate, I will win at least $100k in profit before the main event. Regardless of the outcome, I will conduct myself with class, composure, and calm. Remembering all the while how truly blessed I am to have a family that loves me, and the talents to provide a great life for them. THAT by any measure makes me as fortunate and wealthy as anyone touting a bracelet. Jeezus.

Poker is just a place to get the satisfaction out of competing against other thrill seekers to see how well I can fair. Fun to dream about the TV cameras and noteriety among peers, but more better positioned in my life as a fun pastime that comes with some occasional prize money.

When losing becomes unimportant, you free yourself to win! - Me, Now, Spontaneous!

Some Effort at Record Updating

This always happens, so difficult to keep every session in detail recorded. Well here is the best shot at sessions since my last entry based on memory:

Online all: ($1,200)

Live cash: ($1,000)

Live Tourney: ($900)

Don't have time to comment on sessions, other than I am slowly fixing the leaks, and finding that playing smaller limit online allows me a convenient and less volatile way of working on the leaks, as well as picking up other subtleties that will help my game overall.

Think I am due for a nice score soon if I can keep working out the weaknesses and just be more ABC and patient.

Misc Sessions

4.28.08 Bike -$1,000 in $3-5 NL.

5.2.08 Commerce

Even in multiple $5-10 NL sessions

-$335 in NL tourney

5.3.08 Pechanga

-$200 $5-5 NL

Online Pokerstars and Fulltilt

Can only buy in $100 at a time lol so so far, -$600 in about 2 weeks. Forced to play at small levels, have to wait for a real nice score to build anything meaningful up.

Generally, starting to solid things up a bit but still playing too many hands. Fix that leak, and be content with the $100 to $150 max hourly profit that will come from the $5-5 and $5-10 NL games.

Bike 4.24.08

$5-10$ NL ... Buy in for $1,500 and run it up to $2,700. Then got moved to a table where I played too many hands and never caught decent hands. Ended up even, cashing out for $1,500. Decided to play $335 NL tourney, lasted about an hour. Horrible players, horrible 30 minute structure. Played well, just lost 2 races in a row to same player.

Against my better judgement I went back to cash games, and despite playing at a lower level ($3-$5 NL and $5-$5 NL), ended up losing the remaining $1,1165 over a 6 hour session.

Total for the day: ($-1,500). This puts me about even for the year. So, time to practice the discipline it takes to grind profits. #1 battle is with impatience and boredom. Gaaaaaaawd it takes so much time between hands. So I end up getting in too many pots and playing poorly.

I just realized ... I have generally had more profit in the first half of a session (say inside 3 hours) than in the second half. Also, I think I have an application for the Pareto Principle. 80% of the profits will come from 20% of the sessions, and within a session, 80% of the wins will be done in 20% of the pots.

SO FOCUS ON BETTER TIMING ... HOLDING TO THE 80-20 RULE ABOVE. And let the other 80% of the time just be less volatile, more "idle" profit preservation, NOT downswing time. THAT is your number one leak. Not paying people off who have you beat, not making moves at the wrong time, not being outplayed alot. Rather, it is refusing to succumb to the reality of the 80-20 rule. So if the patience doesn't lead to profit at any given session, get up, and realize you still need to abide by the bigger rule that 20% of the sessions yield 80% of the profit.  Put differently, 20% of the profit is spread across 80% of the time.

This is for cash games of course. But I wouldn't be surprised if tourneys are to yield similar rules of profit. Bad play can of course make you lose 100% of the time!

4.20.08 Bike

Won $450 in $3-$5 NL, used profit to buy into $335 tourney. Wasn't too excited about the 30 minute rounds and smallish turnout, busted on second hand LOL. Then proceeded to lose remainder of profit plus another $400 at the same game, which was just dead. I decided to gamble mostly on some dumb preflop plays. Left after about 30 mins.

Total session -$500

4.17.08 Bike $5-$5 NL

Took away +$1,250 in a 5 hr session. Lost $350 on my second hand with J-J in the BB, but didn't tilt and quickly built it back up after a $400 reload. Prefer the games here to Commerce's similar limits because a) not as many reckless players so variance is less, easier to be table captain which is my most profitable style and b) there is an unlimited buy-in on the $5-$10. And the $5-$5 has a spread limit buy-in of $300-$500 which is a deeper stack than $400 at $10 BB at Commerce. Just altogether a more profitable environment.

Commerce 10-20 NL

Friday afternoon started play about 4pm. Bought in for $2,500. Ran it up to $6,000 in 2.5 hrs. Then Asian to my right flops set holding 2-2 on a flop of 6-6-2. I have position on him with K-K, called him down to river. ($3k) in that one hand. Fuck. Then got coolered by him again, ($1k). Back to where I started. Ran it back to $4k then lost $2k when my flush lost to river board pairing. In both the K-K vs 2-2 and this hand, my gut told me I was beat at the river but I proceeded to make the call anyways. After that I would not say I played terrible, but just never got enough big pot action, and ultimately moved in looking to win a $2,400 pot on a flush draw but blanked out.

-$2,500 for the session. No going to do Vegas this week for WPT Championship super satellites unless I feel really, really good mentally, and business continues to ramp up nicely. Just too much damn time and money to get up there, stay, try some single table satellites, potentially not hit on those and be forced to fork over $2,500 for the super, only to run the risk of not getting that done. Probably better to just cool off the downswing, focus on business and family, reflect further on the elements of play that have not been good enough to yield a profit.

It's NEVER a good place to be when you fear a bust at the cash game or tournament. Playing when it is not financially justified or when your time belongs with business or family is a sure fire recipe for bad play. So I may likely just hold off until the WSOP starts in June. That leaves 6 weeks to "refortify" and put myself in a position for success.

But enough of this damn downswinging. Preserve the profits when you hit them, and just knit up until the next big pot. Generally my small ball instincts have been good. What erodes the stack is ..

a) Making too many speculative preflop overcalls simply cause the pot odds are there, even with garbage hands. Of particular weakness has been suited cards and 2-3 gappers with a face card. Just playing too many hands, which over a 4-6 hour session at 50-75 bucks per call, just kills the stack.

b) Not getting up when I have run it up nicely, especially if that is early in the session. I suppose if the game is really juicy, fine. But if it is a game with strong players and all I did was score do to some better luck, might as well count the blessings and JET. Or even sit at a smaller game, risking only 2 or 3 small buyins. Pocket the profit.

Not so much uncontrolled tilting ... rather slow but inevtibale EROSION. Rid your game of it, or just don't play.